WHEN CAN THIS END??
I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS!!
HOW LONG DO I STILL NEED TO SUFFER THIS??
THERE'S LIKE NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD IN LIFE NOW!!
I FEEL SO ALONE!!
WILL I EVER GET USED TO THIS??!!
THIS IS NOT NORMAL!!!
I WANT THIS TO BE OVER NOW!!!
I HATE HAVING BAD MOOD THE WHOLE DAY!!
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!
OH GOD, PLEASE HELP ME......
Monday, July 4, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Let it be....what I wish it would be..........
I remember the first day, it was my drama competition and I can't sent off my parents to the States. My aunt picked me up at school that day. After putting my things at her house, she sent me back home to pack my things up. I remember being all alone at my home, none of my family members were there, feeling alone and had to do all things my ownself, no one to talk to, everyone away from me...... Why can't I go? Why do I have to suffer all this? Why do I have to be here? Shouldn't I be at the airport? Waiting to see my sister again? But no, and I'm all alone here.....
Everytime I went back home to check, it seems like I've never left there before. It all seemed like a dream, a short-bitter dream.... I lied on my parents' bed and it seems like they never left me, but the next thing that hits me is that I have to be quick and go back to my aunt's house again....
I couldn't study here, the only time I can study is when they're asleep, I studied until 3 in the middle of the night, I even studied in the toilet... I was so scared, and I wanna get good results in my exam so I studied as much as I could, but it never seems enough... I cried and shouted, but no one ever seems to notice.... But thank God, the hardest part is over, and now I'm just for you guys to come back home....
Being here is not that all bad actually, I learned how to live with other people. And also see the weakness in myself. My cousins are very disciplined, they make up their own beds when they get up, they listen to their mom and are not exposed to the inmoral world like I do. Other than that, I get to save more money. My aunt pack up food for us to bring to school everyday, so for this whole 4 weeks of school, I only used up 3 ringgit!! How good is that??!! I get to save up more money and help fulfill my dream....
I watched some of the videos taken when my family and I were in the States.... Looking at myself being there seems unreal, I don't want it to seem 'unreal', I want it to seem real! I want to be there again, I want to have something new and fresh in my life. It all seems so dull here, so boring and just..... so lonely......
So please.... let it be....what I wish it would be....
Everytime I went back home to check, it seems like I've never left there before. It all seemed like a dream, a short-bitter dream.... I lied on my parents' bed and it seems like they never left me, but the next thing that hits me is that I have to be quick and go back to my aunt's house again....
I couldn't study here, the only time I can study is when they're asleep, I studied until 3 in the middle of the night, I even studied in the toilet... I was so scared, and I wanna get good results in my exam so I studied as much as I could, but it never seems enough... I cried and shouted, but no one ever seems to notice.... But thank God, the hardest part is over, and now I'm just for you guys to come back home....
Being here is not that all bad actually, I learned how to live with other people. And also see the weakness in myself. My cousins are very disciplined, they make up their own beds when they get up, they listen to their mom and are not exposed to the inmoral world like I do. Other than that, I get to save more money. My aunt pack up food for us to bring to school everyday, so for this whole 4 weeks of school, I only used up 3 ringgit!! How good is that??!! I get to save up more money and help fulfill my dream....
I watched some of the videos taken when my family and I were in the States.... Looking at myself being there seems unreal, I don't want it to seem 'unreal', I want it to seem real! I want to be there again, I want to have something new and fresh in my life. It all seems so dull here, so boring and just..... so lonely......
So please.... let it be....what I wish it would be....
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Dinner with Ebony :> Gonna miss her so much!
28/4/2011 (Thurday)
Ebony returned back home from AUS for a 2-week Easter holiday. And today, we had dinner at Fruits Monster cafe, Lintas. I ordered a Beef sandwich, and she ordered a chicken rice. We had a great time, talking bad about people, her life in Aus, taking ugly pictures and many more fun stuff!
Lastly, we ordered a dessert called Ice Monster special, it's not the best dessert though, but still okay... 2 hours past, and sadly it's time to go home :< Her dad dropped me off at Clarence Home Grill cause my parents are having dinner there. Had a BIG BIG HUG with her, said our good byes and now waiting to see her again in July :>
Ebony returned back home from AUS for a 2-week Easter holiday. And today, we had dinner at Fruits Monster cafe, Lintas. I ordered a Beef sandwich, and she ordered a chicken rice. We had a great time, talking bad about people, her life in Aus, taking ugly pictures and many more fun stuff!
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| She gave a chocolates and nougats :> |
Giving up? Definitely not our option!
19/4/2011 (Tuesday)
Choral Speaking Competition was held today at SMK Amadshah, Inanam. KKHS was team number 9, but because there was 2 teams that pulled out from the competition, we went on stage as the 7th group... Titled "Cry of the Bonsai" was our deep, emotional message.... We did great, and probably one of our best performance we ever had :> Was very glad and proud of ourselves!
Unfairly, we got second-runner up.. We were kinda bumped out by the results though. Plus, schools that got the champion and first-runner up did things that violated the rules, and we did not.... Sadly, there's nothing much we can do, except for just taking minor actions...
But next year, we can do one major thing though, and that is to not give up! We'll try again and again, do the best we can, work on things till perfection ! We're strong, brave and confident! No one can stop us, not even the judges. Even if they let us get the last place and just wanna crush our spirits, we're still not gonna give up, and prove to them that we can be the Champions! We'll be back! Beware... :)
Choral Speaking Competition was held today at SMK Amadshah, Inanam. KKHS was team number 9, but because there was 2 teams that pulled out from the competition, we went on stage as the 7th group... Titled "Cry of the Bonsai" was our deep, emotional message.... We did great, and probably one of our best performance we ever had :> Was very glad and proud of ourselves!
Unfairly, we got second-runner up.. We were kinda bumped out by the results though. Plus, schools that got the champion and first-runner up did things that violated the rules, and we did not.... Sadly, there's nothing much we can do, except for just taking minor actions...
But next year, we can do one major thing though, and that is to not give up! We'll try again and again, do the best we can, work on things till perfection ! We're strong, brave and confident! No one can stop us, not even the judges. Even if they let us get the last place and just wanna crush our spirits, we're still not gonna give up, and prove to them that we can be the Champions! We'll be back! Beware... :)
Monday, April 4, 2011
The best medicine :)
4/4/2011 (Monday, 12.00 a.m.)
It's exactly one month... one month before my parents go to the States for my brother's graduation.... Doesn't that just sounds fun and exciting? Getting to go there again, having the time of my life, meeting church members, experiencing great and unforgettable moments, and just 'Being In The USA' again.... But.... that's not the case for me, cause I'm not going, I'm gonna stay here with my aunt for 4 weeks, without my mom and dad, without anyone whom I'm comfortable with... 4 weeks is long, how am I gonna go through this? I've never been away from my parents this long, I've never been.... alone for this long... How would I feel? I would rather them not buy anything for me, and just let me go... unfortunately it's too late.... just too late...
After a hurricane, comes a rainbow..... I am glad, happy, and grateful. Cause this is the best medicine, hope. This makes me hope more....I know that I'll not be going now, and will go through a really harsh time, but when I go, my life will totally change, cause my life will be there.... I'm praying, God please keep reminding me to do the best I could, to be the best I could .....God I sacrificed, so please let this sacrifice come to worth and just let this dream of mine come true... and I'm still hoping....
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Expected and also unexpected :>
13/3/2011 (Sunday)
My parents bought me a new mobile phone today :) I was planning to buy one because lately my phone wasn't functioning well, so I went to the net and checked it out. Jalou was the one I spotted and I like it very much, the shape, the size, the colour are perfect for me... but the specifications wasn't that good though.... After checking and all, I told my mom about it, and the next next day which is today, my mom specially brought me to Centre Point before my Cambridge tuition, to buy a new phone... ahhh... life is good.... But unfortunately, Jalou is not selling anymore, and the salesperson even said that it's not going to come out anymore.... Because of that, I had to choose some other ones... There was a lot of others that were nice selling there, but most of them are touch-screened, and I don't prefer touch-screened, because they get damaged easily, even the salesperson told me that, she said that it'll start to get not-well-functioned once you drop it, and I know that I'll drop my phone, not all the time though, but I just can't take that one-time-risk, so at last I bought the Nokia X5-01 phone, which I never expected to buy, hope that it'll last at least 3 years though, like my previous phone :)
I can't say that I'm not happy, but I'm just not sure whether I bought the right phone or not. It's quite good in it's specifications, it's nice, special shaped, sized nicely and I like it a lot, but what's bothering me is that it's Nokia. It's not that I don't like Nokia, it's just that I've always thought that I'll be buying Sony Erricson and will never be Nokia.. That always happens right?? The thing you say that you'll never do and just ended up doing it, but I'll just take it as a positive thing though, you'll never know if you never try right?? Oh btw, I bought the pink colour one. There's a purple one, but there isn't any selling in the shop, plus I only just found out after I bought the pink one T_T So now, I'm going to look for the purple colour casing, so that I can change the colour whenever I want :>>
My parents bought me a new mobile phone today :) I was planning to buy one because lately my phone wasn't functioning well, so I went to the net and checked it out. Jalou was the one I spotted and I like it very much, the shape, the size, the colour are perfect for me... but the specifications wasn't that good though.... After checking and all, I told my mom about it, and the next next day which is today, my mom specially brought me to Centre Point before my Cambridge tuition, to buy a new phone... ahhh... life is good.... But unfortunately, Jalou is not selling anymore, and the salesperson even said that it's not going to come out anymore.... Because of that, I had to choose some other ones... There was a lot of others that were nice selling there, but most of them are touch-screened, and I don't prefer touch-screened, because they get damaged easily, even the salesperson told me that, she said that it'll start to get not-well-functioned once you drop it, and I know that I'll drop my phone, not all the time though, but I just can't take that one-time-risk, so at last I bought the Nokia X5-01 phone, which I never expected to buy, hope that it'll last at least 3 years though, like my previous phone :)
I can't say that I'm not happy, but I'm just not sure whether I bought the right phone or not. It's quite good in it's specifications, it's nice, special shaped, sized nicely and I like it a lot, but what's bothering me is that it's Nokia. It's not that I don't like Nokia, it's just that I've always thought that I'll be buying Sony Erricson and will never be Nokia.. That always happens right?? The thing you say that you'll never do and just ended up doing it, but I'll just take it as a positive thing though, you'll never know if you never try right?? Oh btw, I bought the pink colour one. There's a purple one, but there isn't any selling in the shop, plus I only just found out after I bought the pink one T_T So now, I'm going to look for the purple colour casing, so that I can change the colour whenever I want :>>
This is the phone :>
And this is the Future one :>> (casing I mean)
Starting of March + a little of ending of Feb :)
26/2/2011 ( Saturday)
Okay, besides the eeky part, I got to learn some new stuff too! For example, the signs or symbols of hands, the position of the legs, how we should use our eyes and so on… The steps were hard though, well… not hard actually just confusing, and I messed up kinda a lot haha, but I managed to do it at last. Although it was tiring and mind wrecking, I still had a lot of fun, so it was definitely worth, plus it’s free too!!
From left: Junaidee, Rubini, Me, Douglas
4/3/2011 (Friday)
BENGKEL TARIAN BHARATANATYAM!! This bengkel is about learning the traditional Indian dance, and also the history of it. It was held in UMS, the location sounds good huh? But….it’s totally not, it’s even worse than my school man, you should see the toilet… Urgh… gross man!!
Okay, besides the eeky part, I got to learn some new stuff too! For example, the signs or symbols of hands, the position of the legs, how we should use our eyes and so on… The steps were hard though, well… not hard actually just confusing, and I messed up kinda a lot haha, but I managed to do it at last. Although it was tiring and mind wrecking, I still had a lot of fun, so it was definitely worth, plus it’s free too!!
4/3/2011 (Friday)
YIPPEE!! Friday is here, the best day of the week, no activies , just free time, get to do things I like, no worry day! NOT ANY MORE!! Frog, I have piano and cello classes now on Friday. I changed my piano teacher, so classes are now on Fridays, and… Today’s the first class I had with my new teacher ( Teacher Tan). Chat a little with her, talked about my lousy piano results, why I wanted to change teacher, etc etc… Lesson was good, she taught me a lot of little techniques, techniques that are useful and actually quite easy… I just have to freakin practice!! Btw, she said that I have the same laugh as you know who, MY SISTER ~Lesson ended~
Cello class is changed to Friday too, that’s because on Monday there’s a new froging activity added in school! “1m 1s, satu murid satu sukan”! How froging is that, froggggggggggg!! :@
5/3/2011 (Saturday)
It’s dad’s birthday today, happy reaching your 54 years of life, dad!! I’ll never know the feeling of turning 54, well…until I get to that age though… I guess nobody likes to turn older right?? Birthday means you’re older, older means happy? Well, probably, I guess, the word 'happy' is there because it’s the day when everybody wants to make you feel happy and loved…right? Any comments here?
We bought cupcakes and a small chocolate moist cake for him, and for the cupcakes, there was only 4 flavours left in the shop, haizz… So we just simply chose some that we think are nice, and went for dinner. We had dinner in the Koryo-Jeung Korean restaurant in Warisan Square. I thought that there’s not going to be more than 3 people inside, but actually there’s quite some people there, haha, I’m so bad thinking that people don’t have business :/ The food was okay…… not as good as the first time… and it’s always like this, the first time ‘GREAT’, second time ‘ last time was better’, btw it’s the 3rd time now though, …… I guess it’s because we always have high expectations, too high that eventually let you down…human nature… After that I wanted to go eat my FAVE dessert “ bubur pulut hitam”in sutera, but sadly and VERY sadly dad had a minor stomach upset, and he said that he wants to go back to sleep, so he took us back home… :<<<< Got back home and just went straight to my room to do my Cambridge homework, feeling kinda bumped out though, you know what I mean … Mummy knows that, so at last she took me there, haiz… what a pampered girl I am… Instead of just ordering the Pulut Hitam , we tried something new too, it’s called “Chocolate Éclair”. It’s not really nice though, it’s just couple of chocolate coated and cream filled biscuits… One of them was even rotten! Gross man… we told them about it, so to repay us back they gave us a couple more of new ones…. So funny man… Last but not least, it’s celebration time!!! The celebration was funny, cause mummy keeps on teasing dad, and just making fun of him…. Look at the pics and you’ll understand :>
Mummy Laughing at daddy... lolzzz
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| His Hair is getting lesser and lesser ( That's what I meant, hehe) |
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Hehe.... Late :$
Time never stops and just make everything seems so short and fast. But right now, I want it to be faster... so much more faster.....
Chinese New Year is here ~ Rabbits everywhere~ :>
3/2/2011 (Thursday)
Time flies... Remembering that last year we spent our CNY with Kelly, Aunty Helen and QQ Lumin, and had a great time spending a night in the island.... But now, even my sister is not with me, and thousands of miles away.... Today's the first day of CNY, so we did what we always have done. The first thing is the best part, getting to wear my new clothes (you wanna see, sis??) ... After getting ready and all, we started heading to Ah Ngi's (my mom’s aunt) house.... Saw some other relatives there too, so got quite a few of Ang Pau, not much but still okay... Later, we wanted to go to my Grandma's house, but she's not in and visiting Mr.Du ( Mr. Evil) lolzzz, we call him that cause he's really an ugly and evil hearted guy... He's in the hospital because he fell down, plus he has Parkinson's too, so they went to visit him. Kinda a retribution? Well, I don't know…..We had nothing much to do, so daddy brought us to those kampung-kampung areas. I saw my "meant to be" school ( SMK Limbanak) and it was actually kinda nice and big, but there's a mosque there , kinda weird to me, cause most of the Kadazan's are Catholics rite?? But whatever... After that, dad said that there was a really nice park up in the hill, so he took us there. The road was so rough, and when we get to the park, it was kinda like kena destroyed already or something, not nice at all, I guess it's because there was no maintenance plus the upper road to the waterfall is blocked too by trees and leaves.... So we had to go through the rough road again to go back down..... It was about 5 o'clock I guess, and we headed to my Grandma's house. Reached there and had the sweet porridge that we take every year during CNY, delicious *YUM YUM* !! And that's it for today :)
4/2/2011 (Friday)
年初二 is here... Woke up kinda late, I learned it from my sis, hahaha. We wasn’t going to go to Kimbua’s (one of my relatives) house, but my aunt (Ah Ma Yi Yi) wanted to go, so eventually we went there. When we reached there, a lot of people had already left… and there was no food left, but it’s actually a good thing..haha, wanna know why? After that, went to Kok Jie’s house, and dad started to talk to her about Christianity… it was intense I tell you…. After being there for about 2 hours, went to a seafood restaurant to have dinner. After that, send my aunt back home and went back home. We didn't get to do the dumplings on the 30th so we did it today. We tried a new thing this year, we put red bean paste inside haha, and we had a different colour coating too, we had yellow, haha if you know what I mean ... :DD
5/2/2011 ( Satuday)
No house for us to visit today, sadzzz, no ang pau… So, we went to 1 Borneo to have a little shopping. Bro didn’t follow us, as always, only wanna hang out with his friends L I met my aunt there, such a coincidence, another aunt btw ( Ah Wei Yi Yi). After shopping a little, and didn’t get to buy anything, started to feel kinda hungry. So we went to secret recipe, and I had brownie’s with ice-cream again, tasty!! One of my favourite desserts, beside bubur pulut hitam with ice-cream, hope that I can have it again soon….haha…. Later, we went back home. A few hours later, maybe at about 10pm, we went to Foh Sang to have supper. Had porridge and kon lau mian, everything is 20% more expensive because of CNY, stupid rite? Got back home at about 11.30, and had my bath. Bro came back home, and played monopoly deal and black jack with him. I won every game in monopoly, YEA ME!! With black jack, I was winning at the starting, a lot actually. But later, he kept winning me back…. Frog… Started to feel quite tired, so went to bed in my bro’s room….
6/2/2011 ( Sunday)
Frog…. It’s the last day of holiday, hate it…. but all I can do is just make the best out of this day J My bro went to National Park with his friends… haiz… Woke up at about 1pm I think. Mom brought me, my grandma and my aunt to visit Michael Liau’s (my uncle??) house. My dad didn’t go with us, wanna know why?? Haha…. Was there for about 2 hours I think, had a lot of snacks and watched SYTYCD (So You Think You Can Dance) there… After that, we went back home. At about 7 o’clock, we went out to have dinner. Went back home, prepared for school, had my bath and had a little worship with my mom. End of holiday :(
8/2/2011(Monday)
Choral speaking audition was held today. I wasn’t anxious or nervous at all, just went for it and read the best I could, I picked out one of the article in the school magazine, and the article was good, I get to use the intonation naturally because the article made it easy, plus I never rehearsed it, so was kinda satisfied. And…. I got in :>
9/2/2011 (Wednesday)
Bro is going back to Singapore today. So sad…. Plus I DIDN’T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY!!!! I slept at 3.30 in the midnight the night before, because we had a little “fun”. And when I woke up at the morning, decided to not go to school…. And then…. I went back to bed :>>>> Woke up at 12, brushed myself up and went for brunch in Pepper Jack’s with my family. The meal was quite good, and cheap too. And here comes the worst part, to the airport :<<<< Said our goodbyes, and went back home L(((( Got ready for my ballet things at home, and headed to aunty Jane’s shop. She was having a big sale, every dress for only RM88, and she charged us even more cheaper. Bought a couple for myself and bought 1 for my sis too!! Funny…. Thousands of miles away but still help her buy dress…. :/ Went to ballet class at 6.30… and that’s it!!
15/2/2011 (Tuesday)
It’s one of the VVIP’s birthday today, so it’s holiday time…. Went to fetch my aunt and grandma and headed to the outskirts. There’s full of pilaks there, so creepy, there’s a kampung where it’s like specially made for them, gross man… But now, here comes the beautiful part :> We went into Karambunai, but not the hotel, whereas the houses they specially build for the orang putih (white people). The houses are so nice, there’s a small, slim pool located in each houses, so nice and comfy. It costs about a million ringgit per house, it’s expensive for us but definitely not for them. Here are some pics:
16/2/2011 (Wednesday)
Had kokum at school today, so finished school at 4.40pm…..but my dad forgotten about me and picked me up at 6.10p.m T_T After I got back home, it was already 6.20. I was kinda tired and you know….. lazy…. So didn’t go to ballet class… and mom was not quite happy bout that…. So… Btw, my aunt was having open house today. So, we went there and had our dinner. Played with Adam and Yasmine (my niece and nephew) Yasmine is sooo cute, and Adam, kinda scary, he bites people!! Put out some fire crackers there too, and that’s about it….
17/2/2011 (Thursday)
Chap Goh Meh is here…. Last day of CNY. Btw, chap goh meh is also valentine’s day for the Chinese people… This morning, I went out with my friends to Suria to celebrate Cassandra’s birthday. We had KFC and it was S.L.O.W… but atleast the chicken’s nice! Thanks Cass!! Hope you like the Famous Amos cookies too (bought it for her and gave her the next day at school)!! After that, they wanted to watch Green Hornet, but I didn’t feel like watching it, so planed to watch another movie with Van… but she can’t. So I was deciding whether to watch a movie alone or go with my parents because they were at Suria too, so at the end I went along with my parents… Later at night, dad brought us to have dinner at Sushi Tei in Suria… The food was quite nice, plus not that expensive too!! So, it was quite worth it! And then, we had a Japanese dessert too, it is called Pino. It’s chocolate with strawberry ice-cream inside, it was quite nice and REALLY cold… Finished eating dinner and went for a little shopping there. I saw a pair of quite nice shoe in Shop Of Shoes that can match the dresses I bought, but it didn’t fit me, frog….. Later, we went back home. Before the CNY ends, we put out our last fire crackers, the one that’s red and long. And took some pics too!! And that’s all we did for CNY this year…. It’s sad that it has to end… :( :)
Chinese New Year is here ~ Rabbits everywhere~ :>
3/2/2011 (Thursday)
Time flies... Remembering that last year we spent our CNY with Kelly, Aunty Helen and QQ Lumin, and had a great time spending a night in the island.... But now, even my sister is not with me, and thousands of miles away.... Today's the first day of CNY, so we did what we always have done. The first thing is the best part, getting to wear my new clothes (you wanna see, sis??) ... After getting ready and all, we started heading to Ah Ngi's (my mom’s aunt) house.... Saw some other relatives there too, so got quite a few of Ang Pau, not much but still okay... Later, we wanted to go to my Grandma's house, but she's not in and visiting Mr.Du ( Mr. Evil) lolzzz, we call him that cause he's really an ugly and evil hearted guy... He's in the hospital because he fell down, plus he has Parkinson's too, so they went to visit him. Kinda a retribution? Well, I don't know…..We had nothing much to do, so daddy brought us to those kampung-kampung areas. I saw my "meant to be" school ( SMK Limbanak) and it was actually kinda nice and big, but there's a mosque there , kinda weird to me, cause most of the Kadazan's are Catholics rite?? But whatever... After that, dad said that there was a really nice park up in the hill, so he took us there. The road was so rough, and when we get to the park, it was kinda like kena destroyed already or something, not nice at all, I guess it's because there was no maintenance plus the upper road to the waterfall is blocked too by trees and leaves.... So we had to go through the rough road again to go back down..... It was about 5 o'clock I guess, and we headed to my Grandma's house. Reached there and had the sweet porridge that we take every year during CNY, delicious *YUM YUM* !! And that's it for today :)
4/2/2011 (Friday)
年初二 is here... Woke up kinda late, I learned it from my sis, hahaha. We wasn’t going to go to Kimbua’s (one of my relatives) house, but my aunt (Ah Ma Yi Yi) wanted to go, so eventually we went there. When we reached there, a lot of people had already left… and there was no food left, but it’s actually a good thing..haha, wanna know why? After that, went to Kok Jie’s house, and dad started to talk to her about Christianity… it was intense I tell you…. After being there for about 2 hours, went to a seafood restaurant to have dinner. After that, send my aunt back home and went back home. We didn't get to do the dumplings on the 30th so we did it today. We tried a new thing this year, we put red bean paste inside haha, and we had a different colour coating too, we had yellow, haha if you know what I mean ... :DD
5/2/2011 ( Satuday)
No house for us to visit today, sadzzz, no ang pau… So, we went to 1 Borneo to have a little shopping. Bro didn’t follow us, as always, only wanna hang out with his friends L I met my aunt there, such a coincidence, another aunt btw ( Ah Wei Yi Yi). After shopping a little, and didn’t get to buy anything, started to feel kinda hungry. So we went to secret recipe, and I had brownie’s with ice-cream again, tasty!! One of my favourite desserts, beside bubur pulut hitam with ice-cream, hope that I can have it again soon….haha…. Later, we went back home. A few hours later, maybe at about 10pm, we went to Foh Sang to have supper. Had porridge and kon lau mian, everything is 20% more expensive because of CNY, stupid rite? Got back home at about 11.30, and had my bath. Bro came back home, and played monopoly deal and black jack with him. I won every game in monopoly, YEA ME!! With black jack, I was winning at the starting, a lot actually. But later, he kept winning me back…. Frog… Started to feel quite tired, so went to bed in my bro’s room….
6/2/2011 ( Sunday)
Frog…. It’s the last day of holiday, hate it…. but all I can do is just make the best out of this day J My bro went to National Park with his friends… haiz… Woke up at about 1pm I think. Mom brought me, my grandma and my aunt to visit Michael Liau’s (my uncle??) house. My dad didn’t go with us, wanna know why?? Haha…. Was there for about 2 hours I think, had a lot of snacks and watched SYTYCD (So You Think You Can Dance) there… After that, we went back home. At about 7 o’clock, we went out to have dinner. Went back home, prepared for school, had my bath and had a little worship with my mom. End of holiday :(
8/2/2011(Monday)
Choral speaking audition was held today. I wasn’t anxious or nervous at all, just went for it and read the best I could, I picked out one of the article in the school magazine, and the article was good, I get to use the intonation naturally because the article made it easy, plus I never rehearsed it, so was kinda satisfied. And…. I got in :>
9/2/2011 (Wednesday)
Bro is going back to Singapore today. So sad…. Plus I DIDN’T GO TO SCHOOL TODAY!!!! I slept at 3.30 in the midnight the night before, because we had a little “fun”. And when I woke up at the morning, decided to not go to school…. And then…. I went back to bed :>>>> Woke up at 12, brushed myself up and went for brunch in Pepper Jack’s with my family. The meal was quite good, and cheap too. And here comes the worst part, to the airport :<<<< Said our goodbyes, and went back home L(((( Got ready for my ballet things at home, and headed to aunty Jane’s shop. She was having a big sale, every dress for only RM88, and she charged us even more cheaper. Bought a couple for myself and bought 1 for my sis too!! Funny…. Thousands of miles away but still help her buy dress…. :/ Went to ballet class at 6.30… and that’s it!!
15/2/2011 (Tuesday)
It’s one of the VVIP’s birthday today, so it’s holiday time…. Went to fetch my aunt and grandma and headed to the outskirts. There’s full of pilaks there, so creepy, there’s a kampung where it’s like specially made for them, gross man… But now, here comes the beautiful part :> We went into Karambunai, but not the hotel, whereas the houses they specially build for the orang putih (white people). The houses are so nice, there’s a small, slim pool located in each houses, so nice and comfy. It costs about a million ringgit per house, it’s expensive for us but definitely not for them. Here are some pics:
16/2/2011 (Wednesday)
Had kokum at school today, so finished school at 4.40pm…..but my dad forgotten about me and picked me up at 6.10p.m T_T After I got back home, it was already 6.20. I was kinda tired and you know….. lazy…. So didn’t go to ballet class… and mom was not quite happy bout that…. So… Btw, my aunt was having open house today. So, we went there and had our dinner. Played with Adam and Yasmine (my niece and nephew) Yasmine is sooo cute, and Adam, kinda scary, he bites people!! Put out some fire crackers there too, and that’s about it….
17/2/2011 (Thursday)
Chap Goh Meh is here…. Last day of CNY. Btw, chap goh meh is also valentine’s day for the Chinese people… This morning, I went out with my friends to Suria to celebrate Cassandra’s birthday. We had KFC and it was S.L.O.W… but atleast the chicken’s nice! Thanks Cass!! Hope you like the Famous Amos cookies too (bought it for her and gave her the next day at school)!! After that, they wanted to watch Green Hornet, but I didn’t feel like watching it, so planed to watch another movie with Van… but she can’t. So I was deciding whether to watch a movie alone or go with my parents because they were at Suria too, so at the end I went along with my parents… Later at night, dad brought us to have dinner at Sushi Tei in Suria… The food was quite nice, plus not that expensive too!! So, it was quite worth it! And then, we had a Japanese dessert too, it is called Pino. It’s chocolate with strawberry ice-cream inside, it was quite nice and REALLY cold… Finished eating dinner and went for a little shopping there. I saw a pair of quite nice shoe in Shop Of Shoes that can match the dresses I bought, but it didn’t fit me, frog….. Later, we went back home. Before the CNY ends, we put out our last fire crackers, the one that’s red and long. And took some pics too!! And that’s all we did for CNY this year…. It’s sad that it has to end… :( :)
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| The Dessert, Pino |
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
It's been a while........
It's about a month since I post something new, mostly because I was sick and lazy... So sorry sis, for not updating my life (if I may say) to you... Well, this is probably going to be a very long post, so I hope it'll make up everything! Take time to read then :)))
24/1/2011 (Monday)
Can't believe this happened to me in school.... I fainted during assembly. At first, everything was good, I didn't feel sick or anything, just pure normal. After a long while, before the school song (the last thing to do in assembly) started I felt kinda dizzy and quite stuffy, I told Van that I was kinda sick, but I guess she didn't heard me said that. I closed my eyes tightly when the school song started, and then my mind just shut off I guess... the next thing I heard was both of my teachers' voices, they were carrying me to the ground and all, and I was all the while quite awake, the teacher asked the students to take off my tie, but I did it myself, and I kept saying that I was ok, even though my sight was still kinda blurry.... The weirdest thing was that, when I was fainting and bumped into my friends in front, I said sorry, lolzzz, I said the word 'sorry', haha and I don't remember that at all, but whatever, it's kinda cool though to have said sorry :D
27/1/2011(Thursday)
It's sports day at school, but......... I didn't attend, haha, lazy me. At first, we went to the doctor, Dr. Pang at lintas there. I just told my mom about the fainting incident the day before, so she wanted me to go to the doctor. At the afternoon we went there to take a pass or something. After that, went to makan at Yen Ai and had a little CNY shopping, kinda fun, and bought some new clothes too :>>> At about 6 p.m, it was then my turn to go to meet the doctor. He's very friendly, and most of all, ask loads of questions too! The doctor said that I was okay, haha. Good heartbeat and all, but I was underweight, kinda a compliment to me! Hehe... After that went to Hana Japanese restaurant to have dinner. Some food were good, some were quite bad, sorry... The Japanese Shandy was not the best, kinda tastes like water actually, the sushi rolls were really good though, very tasty and nice. First time had a japanese Pizza, haha, too hot and kinda weird to me, so it's a no no for me.
29/1/2011 (Saturday)
Can't sleep well at night after watching Paranormal a few days ago, I kept spooking myself!! Haiz, I hope it'll go away soon..... When it was about 8 in the morning, I felt really hot and not very well, felt like puking. So I went to the toilet, after that I decided to go to the kitchen sink and sat there, scared that I'll puke at any time.... Thank God my servant was there so I asked her to call mom. I started feeling better and mom was quite scared, she's scared that I'm having diabetes or something, which I'm NOT!! I think it's because of the medicine that the doctor gave me that made me sick, I drank a little of water after taking the medicine so it made me like this.... I went back to sleep after taking some nestum and panadol... At about 2 p.m my dad came back home, and I was still in bed.... feeling tired and very hard to pull myself up, but I did it anyway... Was having sore throat too at that time, so it was very hard to speak... After resting at home for a long time, my dad and mom brought me to Gaya Street to take a walk. There was lots of stalls selling CNY things there, and thankfully I managed to shop a little... While walking, we saw Caprilla Ice-cream selling, but I wasn't allowed to eat one, so sad.... After that, went back home and slept with my parents.... Frog... what a day.... but atleast I get to have a better sleep :)
1/2/2011 (Tuesday)
Yea! Bro is coming back home today! Was quite excited about this, cause it'll be fun if there's one more person at home! I was counting the hours until the time he would arrive here, haha, so I guess I was quite very excited. Bro told us that he's gonna arrive in KKIA and not the Air Asia Airport (AAA) even though he's using Air Asia, so we went to KKIA, but there were like NO ONE there, so we got quite suspicious.... We asked the information counter people there, and they told us that it is in AAA, so we went there. After getting to AAA, a while later, bro called. We asked him which airport is he in and he said KKIA, we were like WAD??!! But actually he's in AAA, after checking where he really is and actually there's no AAA, it's KKIA 1 and KKIA 2. Lolzzz, hope you guys get it. Waited about 45 mins for him, and he looked FAT!! Especially his face! Hahaha... At night, 11 pm like that, we went to Segama there for night street shopping, we always do this during the 29th of month the before CNY.... After that, went back home and slept.... Before I forget, today is Vanessa's b'day, but we didn't get to do anything for her today, so sorry! But don't worry, you'll have your present :>
2/2/2011 (Wednesday)
年三十晚了！！ 吃团圆饭和打烟花！ Weee ~ ~ ~ But sadly sis is not here but having a great time in America herself !! So was quite lonely... boo hoo, and of course bro is always being out with his friendss.. But at night I got to spend some time with him, even though his friends were here too. One of my bro's friends brought his gf here, don't really like her! She's kinda arrogant and all, won't smile to me, and keep on BLOCKING me!! Stupid her!! She's not even pretty!!! Frog you.... Anyway, enjoyed having once in a year time, putting fire crackers and all. There was one that was REALLY REALLY LOUD!! Shocked me sooo much, while it burst you can feel it, like really feel it, vibrating and the power of it pushing you, oh... hate it and like it at the same time, and it's name was CRAZY BOOM! LOLZZZ....
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| Look at him, peacing there.... |
Thursday, January 20, 2011
我家的另一边。。。
YEAH!!! 终于做完功课!!! 猪年的我真是爱睡觉， 刚刚才从三时下午睡到八时晚上， 现在又要睡觉了。。。 :)))))
18/1/2011 (星期二）
哇。。。 这天真是奇妙啊。。。三时半下午要出门去补习班是， 竟然没有钥匙出门 O_O ( stucked in my own home) 这时，只有一个方法可以出门， 那就是从我家满草， 潮湿后门的小路走出去。。。 我十五年生活的第一次呢。。。
(哈哈， 特别牌了几张相片)
哈， 终于走到外面了。 下一个难度是要用篱笆爬进家里， 第一次失败了， 第二次反而从篱笆跌了下来，痛死我了， 现在脚板还是有点痛的。。。妈妈现在还帮我按摩着呢。。。 (12.02 A.M) 最后， 因为伤了脚， 妈妈就借了邻居的阶梯爬了进家里(早都应该这样做啦) 就这样， 任务完成， 但是迟到补习班了!! But, who cares?? :D
18/1/2011 (星期二）
哇。。。 这天真是奇妙啊。。。三时半下午要出门去补习班是， 竟然没有钥匙出门 O_O ( stucked in my own home) 这时，只有一个方法可以出门， 那就是从我家满草， 潮湿后门的小路走出去。。。 我十五年生活的第一次呢。。。
哈， 终于走到外面了。 下一个难度是要用篱笆爬进家里， 第一次失败了， 第二次反而从篱笆跌了下来，痛死我了， 现在脚板还是有点痛的。。。妈妈现在还帮我按摩着呢。。。 (12.02 A.M) 最后， 因为伤了脚， 妈妈就借了邻居的阶梯爬了进家里(早都应该这样做啦) 就这样， 任务完成， 但是迟到补习班了!! But, who cares?? :D
Monday, January 17, 2011
More Tears Than Laughters :)
Is it funny that I put a smiley face even though there was more tears?? Actually.... no. This is gonna be my first post ever in a blog, there's a first time to everything rite?? Is this a good starting by saying something that really touched me? Why should I let the world knows how I feel?? Ok...this is starting to get confusing. Should I write my blog this way? Or is there THE WAY?? Who cares rite?
More tears.... actually golden tears.... Tears that made sense to everything.... It's not about my b'day, it's not about whether I celebrated it or not.... it's about the people around me, people who left me, people's who's far away, people who doesn't know me.. I had so many surprises, good and bad oness, three of my friends just gave me a box of dark chocolate, a birthday wish I've waited from someone, the most unexpected call from the most unexpected person, my mom, my dad and definitely Golden tears....
I'm not sad, not sad at all.... I don't care now, I just wanna get away.. Why am I here? I wanna be in heaven with God, I do... but am I really going to heaven?? Only God knows....
It's funny how I write things, everything seems to be here and there, but that's what makes it special, and I like it that way.
13/1/2011（Thursday）
Well, it's my birthday!! Didn't really talked about it, nor thought about it nor planned anything. Same goes to my parents, as you can guess they didn't know until my dad checked FB. That moment was crutial, tears just came flowing, my mom was so disappointed about herself, and cried too and most surprisingly my servant called to wish me, her name is Rovina, but we always called her 'kakak fina'. It was so....soo.... wonderful and just unexpected, everything was wonderful. I don't know why I cried, I'm not sad that time, I didn't care! I feel so overdrained by emotions, I felt loved.... that's what I felt.... LOVE..... not a yearly celebration nor presents, I don't care about those stuff.
14/1/2011 （Friday）
Went to Little Italy, you know, the restaurant below Capital Hotel.... Mummy and daddy wanted to make up for my birthday, wellll, of course I would love that!! Had a pizza, a wine sauce based pasta, Lamb, and most importantly had Chocolate Mousse for desserts!! After that, went home to have a small cup cake birthday celebration!!
NOW 17/1/2011 9.55 p.m （Monday）
Today had not much homework so was able to blog... Hey Jan, Van, Christy, don't feel bad or feel disgusted or anything, I'm really sorry, but why wait next year when it's today? You sure there's a next year? Didn't you guys had a year before? I'm so sorry and I don't know whether I should write this here or not but I don't think there's any other way to tell you guys. I understand that you guys don't have time or transport to plan anything for me, the chocolate is good, I like the card too, I don't care about whether it's awesome or not but why wait next year?? You guys know what I mean? It's so hard for me to say it, but it's harder not to say it... Oh guys, I'm so sorry, I just don't know....
More tears.... actually golden tears.... Tears that made sense to everything.... It's not about my b'day, it's not about whether I celebrated it or not.... it's about the people around me, people who left me, people's who's far away, people who doesn't know me.. I had so many surprises, good and bad oness, three of my friends just gave me a box of dark chocolate, a birthday wish I've waited from someone, the most unexpected call from the most unexpected person, my mom, my dad and definitely Golden tears....
I'm not sad, not sad at all.... I don't care now, I just wanna get away.. Why am I here? I wanna be in heaven with God, I do... but am I really going to heaven?? Only God knows....
It's funny how I write things, everything seems to be here and there, but that's what makes it special, and I like it that way.
13/1/2011（Thursday）
Well, it's my birthday!! Didn't really talked about it, nor thought about it nor planned anything. Same goes to my parents, as you can guess they didn't know until my dad checked FB. That moment was crutial, tears just came flowing, my mom was so disappointed about herself, and cried too and most surprisingly my servant called to wish me, her name is Rovina, but we always called her 'kakak fina'. It was so....soo.... wonderful and just unexpected, everything was wonderful. I don't know why I cried, I'm not sad that time, I didn't care! I feel so overdrained by emotions, I felt loved.... that's what I felt.... LOVE..... not a yearly celebration nor presents, I don't care about those stuff.
14/1/2011 （Friday）
Went to Little Italy, you know, the restaurant below Capital Hotel.... Mummy and daddy wanted to make up for my birthday, wellll, of course I would love that!! Had a pizza, a wine sauce based pasta, Lamb, and most importantly had Chocolate Mousse for desserts!! After that, went home to have a small cup cake birthday celebration!!
NOW 17/1/2011 9.55 p.m （Monday）
Today had not much homework so was able to blog... Hey Jan, Van, Christy, don't feel bad or feel disgusted or anything, I'm really sorry, but why wait next year when it's today? You sure there's a next year? Didn't you guys had a year before? I'm so sorry and I don't know whether I should write this here or not but I don't think there's any other way to tell you guys. I understand that you guys don't have time or transport to plan anything for me, the chocolate is good, I like the card too, I don't care about whether it's awesome or not but why wait next year?? You guys know what I mean? It's so hard for me to say it, but it's harder not to say it... Oh guys, I'm so sorry, I just don't know....
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